Rant Put the nails in the coffin of my relationship with the ex last Monday, got completely hammered and decided to go bang on her door at 3am, in the middle of a downpour. Her and the roommate thought someone was breaking in. The cops were called and they found my drenched carcass laid out on the porch. I recieved a disorderly conduct ticket and shelled out over $200 for the waiverable fine today. She has no plans of talking to me anytime soon. Rant Why did I do this you ask? I wish I had that answer. I let my emotions get the best of me. Completely disgusted with myself the last week. Rave Finally realizing it's time to take hold of the future and do things that can erase all the low points I've hit. Eager to seek help with the new doc.
My dad is sick. Really sick. This sorry excuse we have for a health care system has been unable to diagnose him. And worst of all are the wait times. Wait a week for an appointment. Then come back for the bloodwork. Then come back the next week after you've fasted for more bloodwork. Then come back in two weeks when the doctor gets off vacation. Then have the results show nothing. Well, let's try a CAT scan! But there's a month long wait list for those. This man is so ill he's showering once a week because he has no energy to walk to the bathroom, stand for 10 minutes, then walk back to bed. It's a 60 MILE round trip from his house to the doctor's office. He's alone and in no condition to drive. He's refusing all help. He's too sick to be an advocate for himself and fight for his own health care. The only one in my family with the power to step in is me. I'm 2,000 miles away. I'm currently on hold with my home phone provider because MY FUCKING LAND LINE QUIT WORKING LAST NIGHT and they can't get it up and running, so I'm borrowing a cell phone to call these assholes and sort it out. I can't afford to miss work, fly across country and handle this. But if I don't he could die. I think I know what his illness is. It has killed two members of my immediate family in the last five years. It killed them quick. Like, within 20 minutes quick. I've never felt so helpless or hopeless in my whole life. I'm fighting the urge to go and make myself throw up, just so I will feel physically better. I'm so tired.
Rave: one of my friends is the subject of video that went pretty fuckin' viral today. It's obviously a joke, but it's pretty easy for me to say that since we're friends. The rest of the internet? Not so much. She's spent the last couple hours reading comments from various websites and found them equally funny as disturbing. The break.com link has over 100k views just today. This is too funny.
Rant: What the hell happened to Craigslist? I used to be able to put something up and it was gone in no time. Now I am trying to sell the last bits of my furniture and nothing.
Rant: Dang it TVTropes, it's almost two in the morning. I have to go to work tomorrow. Let me go to bed.
Rant: Woke up with Taylor Swift stuck in my head. Not like I was fantasizing about her - I mean her actual music. I think I caught teh gay. Rave: AND ALL YOU'RE EVER GONNA BE IS MEEEEAN Now everyone can enjoy that earworm. Misery loves company.
Rant: I was suppose to be home at 3 PM yesterday, but flight delays kept me in the air and in airports until about 10. I had a lot of shit planned to get done, one of the major ones being running to town hall and paying my taxes. Rant: While waiting we managed to rack up a total of $150 in drinks and food (we started travelling around 10 AM). Rant: While on my last flight, I was charged for, but never received my drink, it took them forever to process a refund. Rave: probably a good thing I didn't get it, on the way down they were slow as hell in serving the drinks and they forced me to chug it before landing. Rant: Our luggage didn't make it. Rant: I don't fly much and this is the second time in a row this shit has happened to me, did not leave a good taste in my mouth. Rave: My bed felt amazing last night.
Rave: I finished my Firefighter II class on Friday. Five weeks of incredibly hard work paid off and it feels great. There's still so much to learn in the field, but I'm glad I got through essentials fine. Now I get to spend the rest of the week on the beach. Rant: MCAT scores came in. I got a lower grade than what I am comfortable with. Guess I will need to take it again. Problem is, I have no idea when and I have no idea where I will find time to study for that god-forsaken test again.
Rant: Hospital bill for my wife's surgery came today. Ugh. Rave: Enough in our savings account to cover her surgery, along with my last semester of school, while still giving us a nice buffer. Rant: We may have to put off finishing our basement until we can build our savings account back up. Rave: Just booked a weekend vacation for the wife and I for our anniversary. Can't wait, it will be awesome.
Rant: Went for a haircut this morning and the girl who normally cuts my hair quit just after my last visit to her. I can't stand trying to find a good barber. Got a good cut anyway, but still.
Rant: Just found out through a friend that a captain I worked for when I was in the casino boat industry(if you can call it that) died. He was only fifty. I moved to Florida when I was 21 and he was one of the more motivating factors for me to get my first captains license. I worked for him in just about every capacity, from deckhand to engineer to mate to captain. He was a great captain and a great friend. R.I.P. Capt. Gerald, you will be missed.
rant: I am beyond bored at the moment. No job, with virtually no jobs in the area I'm staying in. Pretty much all of my friends are all in relationships and/or settled so not up for getting wasted at random times in the week (or the weekend for that matter). The town itself I'm staying in depresses the hell out of me and I need to leave here as soon as possible. Rave: Got a few gigs lined up to keep me occupied, Modeselektor in August, DJ Shadow in September and whatever else comes up in the meantime. Rave: Working my way through an online TEFL course, so as soon as I finish that I can start applying for teaching jobs in a multitude of places around the world. Rave: If all else fails I'll go back to Goa in december for a few months. Won't really help the general work situation but its infinitely better than being in the UK over winter. Fuck that noise.
RANT: Some motherfucking common gutter trash hood rats kicked in our backdoor last night and started to steal shit. Somehow none of us woke up. A neighbor saw something suspicious and called the cops who arrived and broke it up. Nothing was stolen except my roommate's car key (which now needs locks replaced to the tune of $800...fuck). Turns out these assholes tried every door in the complex before trying a boot on ours. Fuck them and the whole run down subsidized housing section a few blocks away which leads to a car break in or attempted home invasion every other month in an otherwise upscale and quiet section of Old Town. Gentrification is a good thing and I can't wait for it to continue...fuck. RAVE: Nothing else was stolen and we are all safe. These assholes were in our place, when we were asleep, for some time. I'm supremely thankful today that we are all safe and all things considered we are DAMN lucky.
Rave: Moving this weekend out of this CURSED house to a bigger house Rant: I fucked up my neck and can't pack... I have NO idea if we will be packed in time to move Rant: The new house is more expensive, and my husband was just forced to take a pay cut because he works in the newspaper industry and they are tanking FAST Rave?: Maybe once we get out of this house, that seems to have brought us NOTHING but bad luck, he'll get a new job and things will finally look up
Rave: My sister's baby girl is finally walking. She's the one who was born at 26 weeks and every developmental milestone has been a fight. She is 2.5 years old now.
RAVE: Brought a 500GB hard drive back from the dead. This is actually bigger than all my other HDs put together. I am a techno-necromancer.
Flying to Ontario tomorrow. It's been such a clusterfuck of a week that I'm seriously debating leaving with wallet, passport and directions (to the hospital) and just fucking buying whatever else I need when I'm down there. They have Walmart Superstores in Ontario. I could get a week's worth of clothes, bread, and probably an oil change for under $100.
RANT: Fuck you very much, Netflix. I'm in the middle of watching The Fighter and right at the crucial movie scene, the disk starts skipping irrevocably. Ugh. Should've checked it ahead of time but come on, they shouldn't be sending out such crappy disks. And fuck you even more, Fios on Demand. I figured I'd just rent the movie from my tv to rectify the problem and instead I'm getting nothing bit error messages. Totally sucks. So much for being a good girl and staying in tonight. Ugh. Total bust.